So it has been almost a year since I have made a post and I would like to take the time to explain why. Everyone tells you that you will be busy when you become a parent and this is definitely true, I don’t think I have ever had more work to do in my entire lifetime than I have had being a mother. The thing that no one ever could explain to me was just how truly gratifying it is. People have always talked about the meaning of being a parent and how proud they are of their children and I always knew I wanted this in my life and now that this IS my life now, it still feels surreal.
I love my son more than life itself and couldn’t be more proud of the little toddler he is becoming and the milestones that he reaches, yet somehow I keep hoping to god that I am raising him properly. I wish more people talked about the fears they have that come along with being a mother. I am constantly hoping that I am doing right by him, is he getting all of his nutrients? Should he be forming fuller sentences by this age? Does he understand just how much we love him? Is there anything more I should be doing that I haven’t been doing? These are just some of the things that cross my mind on a daily basis. I know these fears (along with a whole new list of fears) will be in the back of my mind as he is growing older and there isn’t much I can do but believe in myself that I have and I am doing the right things for my son.
Jason Jr can now say a bunch of different words, he started crawling at 7 months and walking by 10 months. He is fully of energy and I honestly couldn’t have asked for a better first born!
Jason Jr’s first birthday!
This past June was Jason Jr’s first birthday and I honestly had no idea how much fun it would be to decorate the house and spoil him rotten until the day happened! He was the sweetest boy :)
Another reason I have been MIA this past year is because along with taking care of my toddler, I was busy growing another little human who was born this past July.
Jason Jr holding the ultrasound photo
When we found out that we were expecting another baby, we couldn’t have been happier (even though it was a little unexpected)! Of course my Fiance and I are a little too impatient and NEEDED to know the sex of the new baby. Well when it came time to find out the sex they told us that we were having a GIRL! We were SO excited to be having a little girl, the million dollar family as they like to call it. I had another ultrasound after that one, and they confirmed once again that we were having a girl. I have heard that they can make mistakes sometimes when they say the sex is a girl so I felt pretty confident in them after them telling me the same thing a second time. We chose the name Lorelai Rose.
I really wished I had have kept up with the blog during my second pregnancy because it was COMPLETELY different than the first. To sum it up short and sweet, I was MISERABLE lol. I guess getting pregnant within 3 months of having a baby didn’t agree so much with my body. My morning sickness was everyday, all day sickness and the last 2 months of my pregnancy were agony. The baby’s head was pressing on my left hip making it near impossible to move let alone chase around my running 10 month old. I kept my fingers crossed every single doctor’s appointment that the baby had moved (even if it was just slightly). NO LUCK! FINALLY I couldn’t take the pain anymore and I bought a yoga ball. I spent one night on it doing pregnant yoga exercises and the next day the pain wasn’t completely gone but it did feel much better. Doing the pregnant yoga actually helped move the baby’s head off of my hip and also helped the baby move into position for labour.
JULY 19 2013 — A beautiful healthy baby was born. To our very big surprise, a beautiful healthy baby BOY was born. We were definitely NOT prepared for a boy. In the months leading up to the baby’s birth we stocked up on VERY girly clothes and got rid of Juniors old clothes that didn’t fit him any longer. Thank god for good friends, who brought me a bunch of boys clothes while I was in the hospital! We named him Lincoln.
I take one look at him even to this day and I couldn’t imagine having any other baby than him!
So THIS is why I have been missing for awhile. I hope you can understand and forgive me! I look forward to sharing my experiences and struggles of motherhood of these two beautiful boys!