The Guilt of Being a Working Mom

I wake up in the morning to two of the most beautiful faces I have ever seen and I am greeted with tired eyes and sleepy smiles and I think to myself how lucky I am to have such amazing children.  We get our breakfast and get dressed for the day and then I am plagued with enormous guilt that this will be the only time that I get to see my boys for the day because I will be headed off to work while they stay at home with their daddy.  My job is unfortunately not a 9-5 and the majority of my shifts really cut into my time with the boys.  A lot of the time I only see my boys for a few hours a day because of the hours I am scheduled and I feel lucky if I make it home before their bed time so that I can give them a bath and put them to bed.

I want to be able to provide what I can for my children and when I initially went back to work it was to give my poor brain a rest from constant baby talk and sesame street.  Now, I long for the days when the three of us would watch tv in my room and just spend time together, or the days where we went for a walk to the park, or reading time.  I just feel like I am missing out on a lot of big moments with them and it hurts my heart.  

Is this a common problem among working mothers?  If so, what do you do to maximize your time at home with your children?  What sorts of activities do you do? 

Cat Problems

I have been having a problem with my youngest cat KitKat, she has been chewing through ALL of my cords.  The baby monitor, my iPhone, my iPad, 2 sets of headphones are all destroyed and have been replaced just to be destroyed again.  Does anyone have any advice on how to keep a cat from chewing??  I have never had a problem with any of my other cats before so I’m not sure what to do exactly.

KitKat the destroyer!

KitKat the destroyer!

Babies, Babies, Babies

Over the last few weeks I have heard a lot of great news from people I love, there will be three new beautiful bundles of joy that will grace us with their presence in a few short months!!! I couldn’t be happier! I know these babies are coming into this world to amazing parents and I look forward to watching them grow into the wonderful people I know they will become! 

I remember how excited I was, yet still terrified that I had no idea what the hell I was doing or how I was going to raise my children to be the kind of person any mother could be proud of.  If we are being honest, I still feel like I have no idea what I am doing sometimes but then I look at my boys and I feel like I must be doing something right.  I know all three of these women are going to do an amazing job at raising their little ones and they will be the kind of mother that a child is proud to call “mom”.  So if any of you ladies are reading this, take a deep breath and just know that you are going to be okay and that baby will love you more than anything!

And if you want to get maternity or newborn photos done, Kelly is amazing! 

http://www.kellyrawlinsonphotography.com/

Life and Love

I am sitting here feeling a little bit of cabin fever due to the cold weather. I am seriously over the weather here and ready for it to be warm again! Since I have been feeling a little bit down I decided to make something to lift my spirits and thought that I might as well share so I hope you enjoy!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

Hey everyone,

I just wanted to wish everyone a very happy and safe Halloween!!! It was Lincoln’s first Halloween and we dressed him up as a dragon (this was Jr’s costume from last year) and Jason Jr went trick-or-treating as HULK!  Halloween is my favourite holiday and we had a lot of fun doing things with the kids this year.  I am REALLY looking forward to taking both of the boys out trick-or-treating next year because by then Lincoln will be able to actually join in on the fun.

Halloween 2013

Halloween 2013

We carved some pumpkins earlier this week and Junior had fun playing with all of the pumpkin guts, maybe next year he can pick a design to put on the pumpkin.  This was something that was fun for the whole family.  My sister came with her boyfriend, my mom came with her long time friend and this was Jason’s first time carving a pumpkin EVER!!! I couldn’t even tell you the last time that I carved a pumpkin, I seriously don’t remember (which is noticeable in our final product haha)

too much candy...or beer maybe?

too much candy…or beer maybe?

Pumpkins

Pumpkins

Some people looked at me a little bit weird this year when I was out with HULK.  Do you think he is too young to take out?  I figure that if I choose to let my boy have some chocolate and candy then that is my prerogative and other parents shouldn’t judge.  I saw a couple tonight who took their baby (probably a couple of months older than Lincoln) out trick-or-treating and I thought it was cute!! We all know that the candy is for them and not the baby, but why should anyone try to take away a new parents joy from celebrating a first holiday with their child??

Anyway, I hope everyone had a great Halloween with friends and family!

p.s. I will remember to NOT give either of my boys candy before bed…and this pic will be my reminder…

Hyper Junior

Hyper Junior

It was a rainy day…

It is a rainy day here in my small town in Ontario with clouds, fog and just kind of a blah feeling in our household.  When you wake up on the wrong side of the bed sometimes it takes the smallest thing to turn your whole day around.

So I decided to take my oldest son to the park. I went to the park in my neighbourhood and it was closed off because they are tearing it down and rebuilding.  So then I went to a park in a neighbourhood near mine and again, it was also closed off and being rebuilt.  I had to put my little man in the car and go on a journey to find a park for him to play in.  Now the weather wasn’t really the greatest today, but we did end up finally finding a place to play.  Instead of the actual playground, he preferred to play in the open field.   I let him run around for a LONG time.  He picked dandelions, pick up maple leaves and all in all had a great time.  When we were done in the field we took a long walk along the bike paths.  Junior loves watching people ride by on their bikes, he wants to pet every dog that is walking with their owner, smiling at the people walking by, he is just a social butterfly and I couldn’t be more proud of him.

Junior

Junior with leaf

Picking Dandelions

Picking Dandelions

I’m glad that we were able to find something to do on this rainy dark day that changed the mood for us.  Now hopefully we can bring the happy mood back to our house and change the mood for daddy and baby.

In The Spirit of Returning to the Blog World….

Vote for Jason and Lincoln

Vote for Jason and Lincoln

I was hoping you all could take the time to click the links below and vote for both Jason Jr and Lincoln in the 2013 Gerber Generation Photo Contest.  The winner of this contest will receive a $2000 RESP for higher education!  So please help my boys get there!

https://www.facebook.com/GerberCanada/app_585748744800134?app_data=17501

https://www.facebook.com/GerberCanada/app_585748744800134?app_data=35229

You can vote once a day until October 27th 2013, so get there and VOTE, VOTE, VOTE! <3

My boys and I <3 xoxo

My boys and I

The Crazy Life of a Mom

So it has been almost a year since I have made a post and I would like to take the time to explain why.  Everyone tells you that you will be busy when you become a parent and this is definitely true, I don’t think I have ever had more work to do in my entire lifetime than I have had being a mother.  The thing that no one ever could explain to me was just how truly gratifying it is.  People have always talked about the meaning of being a parent and how proud they are of their children and I always knew I wanted this in my life and now that this IS my life now, it still feels surreal.

I love my son more than life itself and couldn’t be more proud of the little toddler he is becoming and the milestones that he reaches, yet somehow I keep hoping to god that I am raising him properly.  I wish more people talked about the fears they have that come along with being a mother.  I am constantly hoping that I am doing right by him, is he getting all of his nutrients?  Should he be forming fuller sentences by this age?  Does he understand just how much we love him?  Is there anything more I should be doing that I haven’t been doing?  These are just some of the things that cross my mind on a daily basis.  I know these fears (along with a whole new list of fears) will be in the back of my mind as he is growing older and there isn’t much I can do but believe in myself that I have and I am doing the right things for my son.

Jason Jr can now say a bunch of different words, he started crawling at 7 months and walking by 10 months.  He is fully of energy and I honestly couldn’t have asked for a better first born!

Jason Jr's first birthday!

Jason Jr’s first birthday!

This past June was Jason Jr’s first birthday and I honestly had no idea how much fun it would be to decorate the house and spoil him rotten until the day happened!  He was the sweetest boy :)

Another reason I have been MIA this past year is because along with taking care of my toddler, I was busy growing another little human who was born this past July.

Jason Jr holding the ultrasound photo

Jason Jr holding the ultrasound photo

When we found out that we were expecting another baby, we couldn’t have been happier (even though it was a little unexpected)!  Of course my Fiance and I are a little too impatient and NEEDED to know the sex of the new baby.  Well when it came time to find out the sex they told us that we were having a GIRL!  We were SO excited to be having a little girl, the million dollar family as they like to call it.  I had another ultrasound after that one, and they confirmed once again that we were having a girl.  I have heard that they can make mistakes sometimes when they say the sex is a girl so I felt pretty confident in them after them telling me the same thing a second time.  We chose the name Lorelai Rose.

I really wished I had have kept up with the blog during my second pregnancy because it was COMPLETELY different than the first.  To sum it up short and sweet, I was MISERABLE lol.  I guess getting pregnant within 3 months of having a baby didn’t agree so much with my body.  My morning sickness was everyday, all day sickness and the last 2 months of my pregnancy were agony.  The baby’s head was pressing on my left hip making it near impossible to move let alone chase around my running 10 month old.  I kept my fingers crossed every single doctor’s appointment that the baby had moved (even if it was just slightly).  NO LUCK!  FINALLY I couldn’t take the pain anymore and I bought a yoga ball.  I spent one night on it doing pregnant yoga exercises and the next day the pain wasn’t completely gone but it did feel much better.  Doing the pregnant yoga actually helped move the baby’s head off of my hip and also helped the baby move into position for labour.

JULY 19 2013 — A beautiful healthy baby was born.  To our very big surprise, a beautiful healthy baby BOY was born.  We were definitely NOT prepared for a boy.  In the months leading up to the baby’s birth we stocked up on VERY girly clothes and got rid of Juniors old clothes that didn’t fit him any longer.  Thank god for good friends, who brought me a bunch of boys clothes while I was in the hospital!  We named him Lincoln.

Lincoln Alexander

Lincoln Alexander

I take one look at him even to this day and I couldn’t imagine having any other baby than him!

So THIS is why I have been missing for awhile.  I hope you can understand and forgive me!   I look forward to sharing my experiences and struggles of motherhood of these two beautiful boys!

and I am back!

Hello readers,
First I would like to say thank you for taking the time to read my blog again! I know it had been a long time (4 months) since I have posted anything but I have been spending my days getting to know my beautiful baby boy, Jason Jr.

2 Weeks Old

Everyone tells you that the time flies when you have a baby but honestly I had no idea that it would go by this fast. We have been through countless onsies, diapers and shoes that already no longer fit him! I look at him today and wonder already where the time has gone. He went from a very sleepy (and SO WELL BEHAVED) newborn to a very active happy baby. All of the milestones that he will reach within the next year are completely exciting and I can’t wait to share them with you. So far, the milestones that he has reached have been lifting his head up very well during tummy time (he has always been good at this), holding his own bottle, sitting well on his own, grabbing his feet, teething, etc. I love that every day he surprises me with something new and I can’t wait to share them all with you!

Happy Halloween!

Today was his first Halloween!! He was dressed as a dragon today and I have to admit I thought he looked pretty damn adorable! He wasn’t feeling 100% because he had to have his second round of shots today :(

dragon and daddy

Oh there he is making some noise, so I will update you later! Thanks for reading!

A Week Late…but Jason James has arrived!

I may be posting this a week late, but on June 28th at 2:14 pm I was finally introduced to my little 7lb 11oz baby boy who we named Jason James!  The second he was in my arms I realized what other mothers were talking about when they talk about the instant love that you feel when you see your newborn.  I have never felt anything like it and it is the MOST AMAZING FEELING!  It’s so true that you don’t know what love truly is until you hold your newborn for the first time.

Introducing Jason James Jr.

I love this mommy thing, even though I am still getting used to it.  With this being my first child, I know I am bound to make a few mistakes here and there but so far I feel like I am getting the hang of it.  I did luck out with a really great baby though.  He is such a laid back baby and pretty much only cries when he’s hungry or wants to be changed.  How did I get so lucky?!

mommy and JJ

Proud Parents! <3

The delivery process was a little bit intense.  I went into the hospital for a non-stress test because I was about a week overdue and they also did an ultrasound which showed that there was very little amniotic fluid around the baby.  They decided that they were going to induce and that I wasn’t going anywhere until he was born.  About 16 hours later they broke my water and 6 hours after that my little man had been introduced to the world!  All my body needed was a little push and then it did the rest of the work fairly quickly.

I am really looking forward to all of the new life changes that come along with mommy-hood and I can’t wait to embrace all of the good and bad.

Here are a few more photos of the love of my life:

Proud Momma!

My brother, sister-in-law, niece and nephew came over for a little visit and we got some great pictures of the kids holding Jason that I just had to share!

Cousin Willow and Baby Jason

Cousin Toby and Baby Jason

And to finish things off today here’s a candid photo of Jason with his daddy:

Daddy and Junior!

Thank you everyone for your interest in our growing family, I will keep you updated with the trials and tribulations of raising a son that I assume is going to be just like his daddy! lol

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